Everything's cool as long as i'm getting thinner.

Anonymous asked: This blog makes me quite sad, I appriciate it's a place you can be yourself and express your desires but eating 300 calories a day isn't healthy, it isn't going to help you loose weight in the long run and can course serious health problems. Thinner people are just as much at risk as those who are obese of health related problems. You are beautiful as you are. Take care x

I’m sorry it upsets you, but i can’t help what i want.
I’m healthier sometimes, honestly, and i know all the health risks. I’ll stop as soon as i’m happier and become healthy, but sometimes i feel like my weight is the only thing i don’t like about myself i can control, and i don’t want to lose it. xxx

Anonymous asked: Hi, I've just found your blog and wanted to tell you that I really hope one day you will learn to love and respect your body as it is. Getting skinny won't solve your problems and will damage yourself in the long run, believe me, I've been there and it's not worthy. Nobody finds extremely skinny girls attractive. If you want to do loose weight do it the healthy way xoxo

I tried losing weight the healthy way and it didn’t work, but i do only come on here when i get depressed and shit, when i’m in a good mood i forget about all this and i’m healthier. Idk, I’m not as unhealthy as i sound, i guess.
I don’t want to be skinny for anyone else, i want to be skinny for me. Xxx

Loat fat around my stomach and waist but put it on on my thighs. Sigh.

~Drawing a beautifully thin person for art so i can have an exuse to have the photo with me at all times.
~Saying i can’t eat because of “brace pain”. (this is kinda true though)
~Using the heat to justify drinking so much
~saying i want to walk places because it’s sunny
~Blaming the heat for me having no appetite.

• me: hey i just met you
• me: and this is crazy
• me: but i've seen all your videos and follow all your twitters and tumblrs and messaged you on facebook and have loads of posters of you on my wall and a blog dedicated to you and i cry over your face and the fact that you'll never know of my existence daily
• me: so call me maybe

Calorie counts~

Monday: 300- Minestrone soup and a nutella hot chocolate
Tuesday: 200- Tomato soup, one grape and one small half-teaspoon of chocolate ice cream
Today:
Quorn cottage pie- 200
Biscuits- 631

I ate more calories on biscuits today then i did on Monday and Tuesday put together. Fuck.
Yesterday i walked 2 miles to school, ran 900 metres in PE and then went to a gig from like 7:30 until 11, but we were walking round/queing/climbing up hills and running down because we saw the bans and almost met them from about 6-11:30. Best night of my life. The Horrors are perfect in every single way. And their legs are so thin my god.
Today i almost fainted from heat/hunger/stress/exhaustion but idc last night was insane.